So it’s my first week as a partially employed person. I don’t know what to do yet. I don’t know what to write yet. I guess I just thought that working would fall right into place and all but not as easy as I thought it would be. It’s a bit more complicated right now.
My thoughts are flooded and I am restless. I can’t sit for more than ten minutes at a time. I am only working 2 days a week during the days. I still have various evening engagements. Some paid.
I have the new bi-weekly DJing gig that is giving me a good small chunk of cashola. If anyone is around, I’m at Manahatta which is at 310 Bowery between Bleecker and Houston from the hours of 6:30pm to 10:30pm.
Everything else is various at best.
I am making enough money to pay bills and a little on top of that, but its situations like this that make me happy to work at a bar. I get to drink cheap and that helps things.
Urban Word mentoring helps the pocket as well but I am almost done with regular workshops for the season. The summer is not a busy time over at Urban Word.
What I do know is that I don’t want to return to regular work. I don’t want a regular day job at least. Maybe a few more nightlife gigs would be nice. Bartending or DJing or something along those lines. I am exhausted of Day Jobs or full time jobs that bring no type of satisfaction to me. Maybe I should have gone to college if that were the case but I didn’t. I’m 27 and I’ve been working 6 to 7 days a week for the last 10 years. Now I have a total of 4 days a week where I am not really working for someone else.
With this time I want to really work on my own stuff. Be it poetry or music or promoting or making deals and having a regular hustle, this is what I want to do. Find a way to make money while working on my arts.
I’m fortunate to have enough money to pay bills without falling behind, and I am fortunate to have a girlfriend who is supporting me during this confusing time.
I’m happy yet terrified.
Today is day one.
Tomorrow I will work. Wednesday I should have off but I have to make up a few hours.
Friday I don’t know what to do.
I’ll figure it out though.
Writing prompts would be great right now Send them to me if you can. Please.
That’s it for now.