So it’s my first week as a partially employed person. I don’t know what to do yet. I don’t know what to write yet. I guess I just thought that working would fall right into place and all but not as easy as I thought it would be. It’s a bit more complicated right now.

My thoughts are flooded and I am restless. I can’t sit for more than ten minutes at a time. I am only working 2 days a week during the days. I still have various evening engagements. Some paid.

I have the new bi-weekly DJing gig that is giving me a good small chunk of cashola. If anyone is around, I’m at Manahatta which is at 310 Bowery between Bleecker and Houston from the hours of 6:30pm to 10:30pm.

Everything else is various at best.

I am making enough money to pay bills and a little on top of that, but its situations like this that make me happy to work at a bar. I get to drink cheap and that helps things.

Urban Word mentoring helps the pocket as well but I am almost done with regular workshops for the season. The summer is not a busy time over at Urban Word.

What I do know is that I don’t want to return to regular work. I don’t want a regular day job at least. Maybe a few more nightlife gigs would be nice. Bartending or DJing or something along those lines. I am exhausted of Day Jobs or full time jobs that bring no type of satisfaction to me. Maybe I should have gone to college if that were the case but I didn’t. I’m 27 and I’ve been working 6 to 7 days a week for the last 10 years. Now I have a total of 4 days a week where I am not really working for someone else.

With this time I want to really work on my own stuff. Be it poetry or music or promoting or making deals and having a regular hustle, this is what I want to do. Find a way to make money while working on my arts.

I’m fortunate to have enough money to pay bills without falling behind, and I am fortunate to have a girlfriend who is supporting me during this confusing time.

I’m happy yet terrified.

Today is day one.

Tomorrow I will work. Wednesday I should have off but I have to make up a few hours.

Friday I don’t know what to do.
I’ll figure it out though.
Writing prompts would be great right now Send them to me if you can. Please.

That’s it for now.