Hey I am a dope ass cook. I can tear up the kitchen. So I mixed in ziti, with ground beef, with my secret "diablo loco esa vaina si es buena" sauce and a bunch of ricotta after it was all mixed up. It gave it a creamy cheesy twist that it needed. I loved it so much and so did Marisol. We ate until our tummies said enough and shortly after we crashed. I crashed before her. I slept from 9pm until this morining. I woke up a few times during the night but I got a nice amount of sleep.

People at work are nice to me. THey might be pain in the assess but at the end of the day, or year as it is in this case, they come through in a nice way. Not like my poets though, but close. You spend forty hours a week with a group of people for two and a half years and you are bound to cross the co-worker line and become friends. Sometimes a bit closer. Lucia is my Italian mama, and she does a good job at it. Even when she has to break my chops, and tease me like every Italian moma should. Maron. I love pretending to know how to speak Italian, it works about 40% of the time. Okay maybe that is a bit much.

This Christmas means a bit more to me than past years. I am a bit more stable, a bit happier, and I have accomplished a great deal this year. Yesterday someone asked me why I celebrated Christmas day. I don't believe in Christmas, or the birth of Christ. History argues days, and so does the clergy. He was a dope guy and all but celebrating his birthday isn't a priority with me. So the person talking to me claimed that I did it for all the commercial reasons. I thought about it for a minute and said that she was wrong. Every since I can remember I have loved and admired Christmas in New York. That is what I celebrate, the special feeling that this great city 0f ours brings to me and all of its citizens. Including the commercial,a nd lights and decorations that begin at the end of halloween. It is just beautiful, that people consider the holiday and attempt to be a bit nicer to eachother. It is just amazing. Wow and stuff.

This Christmans I am getting something that I have always wanted but never persued. Something that I would never imagine getting. Something that would require work dedication that I am ready to give it. Someone thought beyond the box for me, and looked straight into my dreams. Put a telescope into my ears and viewed my dreams. Something must've happened because she suprised the shit out of me. I am blessed.
Thanks everyone.

Its begining to feel a lot like Christmas.